FYI: Changes & a New Challenge!

When I invited women to join me on “31 days of replacing ‘baditude’ with God’s Word and gratitude” almost a year ago, I had no clue.

I had no clue what I was doing.

I hadn’t developed the materials. I hadn’t written any of the blog posts. I had never been part of an online study. I didn’t know about any of the automated tools available for distributing files. I just put out the word and hoped a few women might join me.

I had no clue what God would do.

He knew that I wasn’t the only woman who struggles with “baditude”. With an inner Anxiety Girl. With perfectionism. With control. With meddling. With fear. With grief.

I had no clue that God would bring me you.

Every time I check Feedburner, I think, “All these women are actually opening and reading my blog posts?” I am astonished…and I rejoice.

Every time I read a comment or e-mail, I think, “She took the time to respond?” I am amazed…and I give thanks.

A year ago, I had no voice.

Oh, I had a cacophony of internal dialogue, much of it unhealthy, some downright toxic. My heart swelled with questions and ideas and thoughts, but the words rarely flowed.

You listened and conversed and challenged until my heart words developed a rhythm. Sometimes steady, sometimes weak, but I feel the beat.

Now, I have Post-It pads and pencils on my night stand, bathroom counter, and quiet time table for the Holy Spirit sparks (ideas) that come throughout the day. (Two in the last five minutes!) My “future blog posts” binder is bursting with hundreds of seedlings waiting to be written to full bloom.

I still have no clue.

When I sat down 20 minutes ago to write this blog post, I thought I was going to tell you all about some upcoming changes and a new challenge.

But clearly, what God wants me to do is say, “Thank you!”

You will never know, this side of heaven, the blessing you are to me. The privilege it is to hit “publish” and know that you are waiting on the other end of the Internet to receive what God is saying to us both.

So from a heart of timid but learning-to-trust love:

Thank you. Thank you! THANK YOU!!!

In His Delight,